I don't know why, but High School is all I can think of lately.
so my blog posts have been somewhat related to high school lately....
hehe, my title ~
Preparation High School!
man, IDK, I'm kind of excited for High School to end. Then I get to go to college, that's if I get accepted to where I want....
BUT IDK!
I'm scared and excited at the same time....
I know what I want to major in, but I'm worried about tuition, boarding, food, transportation, etc etc.
I need a job. haha, i have to save up.
IDK, I applied to Taco Bell I think, because my dad faxed in my application, but no answer. ㅠ.ㅠ
it's unfair, I don't have a work history, because NO ONE HIRED ME!
volunteer work should help me get a job, or something.
I'm desperate...
I need money to provide for my needs.
I HATE money...
it corrupts everything...
meh.
Yay, my mom is going to discuss the beachhouse thing with my friend's mom.
I hope I get to go.
I want to be like super tan, not this like glowing yellow hue I have right now...
haha.
I need to practice for the SAT.
I took a practice test, and I haven't taken any previous studying, or tutoriing or practice or anything
and I got a 1650.
meh, it's not bad, but it's not good either....
aiming for at least 2000+
I need something to do.
I need to read books.
I need to be able to quote relevant information for essay part of SAT.
I suck at essays...
Timothy Brindle and Shai Linne have been mostly of what I've been listening to.
Joe has good taste in music.
hehe. <3
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Excitement.
So, in a few days, or THIS SATURDAY, I might be able to go to the beachhouse for a week with my friend. I'm kind of excited, but I don't know if my parents will say yes...THey changed their mind ot I'm going to think about it. I'm pretty sure that's a no, but I can dream can't I?
EVEN STILL, even if I can't go, I'm still excited for school to start, but I'm probably going to regret that, after a few school weeks, but I'm determined to get the grades I need.
Man oh man, I feel different. Maybe it's just me.
haha.
I woke up at 12 PM today. I need to get in shape. I need to wake up at 5 AM...ugh, this sucks.
sleep is my drug. whatever, as long as it pays off in the end.
EVEN STILL, even if I can't go, I'm still excited for school to start, but I'm probably going to regret that, after a few school weeks, but I'm determined to get the grades I need.
Man oh man, I feel different. Maybe it's just me.
haha.
I woke up at 12 PM today. I need to get in shape. I need to wake up at 5 AM...ugh, this sucks.
sleep is my drug. whatever, as long as it pays off in the end.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Better Is One Day!
Such A GREAT SONG!
I played this for my Sunday School kids, and they loved it, or at least I think they did...
ANYWAYS, It's just one of my favorite songs to play on the Geetarr~
It makes me get goosebumps because it sounds so nice.
haha, I'm so tired...
and I'm disappointed in myself with my practice SAT score...
It wasn't good, and it wasn't bad. Or at least I think so.
Sort of average.
BUT I DON'T WANT AVERAGE! I WANT EXCEPTIONAL! AWESOME! SUPER! FANTASTIC! GREAT! EXCELLENT! SPECTACULAR! STUPENDOUS!
meh, I guess I need to study. Need to find me an SAT book... :D
I played this for my Sunday School kids, and they loved it, or at least I think they did...
ANYWAYS, It's just one of my favorite songs to play on the Geetarr~
It makes me get goosebumps because it sounds so nice.
haha, I'm so tired...
and I'm disappointed in myself with my practice SAT score...
It wasn't good, and it wasn't bad. Or at least I think so.
Sort of average.
BUT I DON'T WANT AVERAGE! I WANT EXCEPTIONAL! AWESOME! SUPER! FANTASTIC! GREAT! EXCELLENT! SPECTACULAR! STUPENDOUS!
meh, I guess I need to study. Need to find me an SAT book... :D
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Ugh...
So, today was an average boring day.
and I've done nothing for the past few days.
and well, the thing I'm looking forward to the most is...
A WEEK AT A BEACH HOUSE!!!
Wooo. Outer Banks in North Carolina. I'm so excited.
My friend invited me and my mom said I could go.
But I'm going to miss my school's open house.
IDK, open house isn't a requirement but I'd like to see my teachers.
UGHH. whatever. I'd take the beach over school anyday.
so YAY!
haha. Thank God for the opportunity.
and I've done nothing for the past few days.
and well, the thing I'm looking forward to the most is...
A WEEK AT A BEACH HOUSE!!!
Wooo. Outer Banks in North Carolina. I'm so excited.
My friend invited me and my mom said I could go.
But I'm going to miss my school's open house.
IDK, open house isn't a requirement but I'd like to see my teachers.
UGHH. whatever. I'd take the beach over school anyday.
so YAY!
haha. Thank God for the opportunity.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Isaiah 6:8
Well, I've decided. I'm going to do something with my life.
No more sitting around being lazy, no more Facebooking ALL day.
I'm going to help out my community through volunteer work, and actually work for college.
I know that my parents won't be able to provide the money for tuition fees for college.
I've been taking High School for granted.
maybe it's too late, but I'm going to try.
I need scholarships/grants.
l might have to loan as well...
Volunteer work seems like a good choice for scholarships.
Grades and courses are going to be better as well.
I'll see the work and study in a new light. The light that I've turned off since Kindergarten.
I'll work hard, and make my parents proud.
that's my wish. to make my parents proud.
My parents always say, "We just want you to do your best."
But, I know they want me to do better, they KNOW that I can do better.
But I've been ignoring that for far too many years.
"Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
and I said, "Here am I Lord, send me!"
Isaiah 6:8
I want to be sent. No.
I NEED to be sent.
No more sitting around being lazy, no more Facebooking ALL day.
I'm going to help out my community through volunteer work, and actually work for college.
I know that my parents won't be able to provide the money for tuition fees for college.
I've been taking High School for granted.
maybe it's too late, but I'm going to try.
I need scholarships/grants.
l might have to loan as well...
Volunteer work seems like a good choice for scholarships.
Grades and courses are going to be better as well.
I'll see the work and study in a new light. The light that I've turned off since Kindergarten.
I'll work hard, and make my parents proud.
that's my wish. to make my parents proud.
My parents always say, "We just want you to do your best."
But, I know they want me to do better, they KNOW that I can do better.
But I've been ignoring that for far too many years.
"Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
and I said, "Here am I Lord, send me!"
Isaiah 6:8
I want to be sent. No.
I NEED to be sent.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Boring Day.
WOW.
So today, was so average.
I just wanted to do something,ANYTHING.
I was so bored,
This was my day.
-------> CLICK ME <-------
UNTIL, one of the church members asked me to babysit one of their kids.
So then, I was sort of amused, but also really irritated.
The kids had fun hurting me, and stepping on me....
Then my most average day, was...a better than normal day.
My dad got mad at me waking up late again...
I need to prepare for school.
I'm trying to decide which career I want to go for...
I think I want to do Culinary Arts.
But I'm not sure.
So today, was so average.
I just wanted to do something,ANYTHING.
I was so bored,
This was my day.
-------> CLICK ME <-------
UNTIL, one of the church members asked me to babysit one of their kids.
So then, I was sort of amused, but also really irritated.
The kids had fun hurting me, and stepping on me....
Then my most average day, was...a better than normal day.
My dad got mad at me waking up late again...
I need to prepare for school.
I'm trying to decide which career I want to go for...
I think I want to do Culinary Arts.
But I'm not sure.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Determination, is that enough?
So I'm determined.
I'm ready for a change.
I've decided to read the Bible.
I've decided to try my best to stop sinning.
But, is that enough?
Just because I'm determined doesn't mean these things will stop.
Just because I'm determined doesn't mean I can do this.
I need perseverance as well.
My nature of doing things, is usually taking the easy way out.
Example: Homework: I'll say I'm going to do it. Then I look at these math problems and say, "Wow, there are a LOT of problems. Then I'll think of people who are in my math class and decide to copy them."
It's easier, but not how it should be done.
You can't copy another person's work or you're just a fraud, a moocher, someone who isn't willing to take care of themselves.
The wide and paved road may have rewards along the way, but in the end it will just cause you pain.
The rocky, narrow road may have suffering and pain along the way, but the reward is the greatest of all.
I'm determined to walk on that narrow rocky road, but I've been walking on that wide and paved road. Can I find the path that leads to that narrow rocky road?
Is it hidden in the bushes? Is it plain in my sight?
Am I just refusing to take it?
Questions. Questions. Questions.
seem to be the only ting on my mind.
My favorite Bible verse is Isaiah 6:8.
It's just amazing how he says without hesitation.
"...Here am I Lord, send me."
I'm ready for a change.
I've decided to read the Bible.
I've decided to try my best to stop sinning.
But, is that enough?
Just because I'm determined doesn't mean these things will stop.
Just because I'm determined doesn't mean I can do this.
I need perseverance as well.
My nature of doing things, is usually taking the easy way out.
Example: Homework: I'll say I'm going to do it. Then I look at these math problems and say, "Wow, there are a LOT of problems. Then I'll think of people who are in my math class and decide to copy them."
It's easier, but not how it should be done.
You can't copy another person's work or you're just a fraud, a moocher, someone who isn't willing to take care of themselves.
The wide and paved road may have rewards along the way, but in the end it will just cause you pain.
The rocky, narrow road may have suffering and pain along the way, but the reward is the greatest of all.
I'm determined to walk on that narrow rocky road, but I've been walking on that wide and paved road. Can I find the path that leads to that narrow rocky road?
Is it hidden in the bushes? Is it plain in my sight?
Am I just refusing to take it?
Questions. Questions. Questions.
seem to be the only ting on my mind.
My favorite Bible verse is Isaiah 6:8.
It's just amazing how he says without hesitation.
"...Here am I Lord, send me."