If Only I Had A Job...

UGHHHHHH! I need a job. I could really use the income for personal wants and needs. The only problem is, I get scared of working. Honestly, I get scared of being taught how to use the cash register for instance. What if I screw it up, what if I.... and so on. I would really like the money, but I can't bring myself to ask for a job at a hiring location. It makes me nervous on how they'll react to me if I ask for an interview or application. I need to get over this fear.

Being a pk, your parents can't really buy you most of the things you want. So, a job could give me money for myself and also help me start saving for college. Jobs do wonders, yet, they are hated. As I said in my last post,the last book I read was "Confessions of A Shopaholic" and well, in that book, the main character used money she didn't have to get what she wanted. She was in debt with the bank and she threw away the letters or hid them, and avoided contact with the bank, and her credit cards were all canceled because she never paid off her debts and ignored the calls. Okay, well I don't know where I was going with that, but I don't EVER want to be like that. I want to be able to live happily knowing I have enough money to buy things that I might frequently or occasionally want.

Hmmmm, okay, I've made up my mind to find a job, during this summer. Speaking of income and money and jobs, I still haven't gotten around to open a checking account. At Wachovia they have student checking accounts that help you save for college and also the checking account doesn't require you to have a minimum balance, and that's pretty amazing. haha, anyways. It doesn't matter where I work or whatever my work is, as long as I have a steady yet small income. haha. life is tough/hard/unfair/etc. etc. Personal wealth, here I come. puahaha. psyche.