If Only I Could Devote Myself...

Wow! It's August now, this Summer Break went by pretty quick. School is about to start again. I always get this excitement but also a dread of school starting again. I kind of want to go to school, but I also kind of don't want to go. Even though, I promised myself that I would work harder and get better grades so that I may actually have a chance to go to "good" college. I'm so worried about my future, I don't know where it's heading.

Well, I need to develop a habitual thirst or hunger for God's Word. I haven't read the Bible in a while, but I honestly want to get back into it, but I haven't gotten around to it. I feel like I'm avoiding God, I feel as if God's been wanting to talk to me, but I'm just ignoring him, and doing whatever I feel like. Whenever I pray, I feel as if God's not listening to my sinful self praying. God. The ultimate reason to live. I need him so much, but why am I avoiding it. I always feel good at retreats, but maybe I'm going to them for all the wrong reasons. I need to set my priorities straight. I'm desperate. I'm going to renew myself. Kill my oldself, then jumpstart myself back to a newer me. Get back into the Bible. And Joe's "Spiritual Steak" It sounds so appetizing. I crave it. I need it. I want to digest it.

I heard a really neat acronym for the word BIBLE.
Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth.